The dreadful comparison game ran through my head; it focused on homeschooling, once again. I never quite give myself enough credit when it comes to homeschooling.
Curriculum is one of the things I get really stuck on.
I have a homeschooling Mom-friend, and I admire her very much. She puts together her own curriculum, very carefully, and she evaluates each book based on each individual child. Every time I listen to her talk about the time she spends picking curriculum, that little voice of doubt that attacks me often says things like:
You just picked a curriculum that all comes in one box.
You didn’t spend enough time making sure Thing 1 could learn from the material.
You aren’t spending enough time picking the right curriculum for Thing 2.
Are you really thinking about using the same curriculum for both kids? You can’t do that!
You don’t know what you’re doing, they are never going to turn out “right”.
When I finally came to my senses, the first thing I said to the doubt was SHUT UP!
The next thing, I ran a checklist of where we are and what my kids can educationally do without help. I evaluated their math, language, writing, reading, art, social studies, and geography skills. I considered how much we’ve learned in a month, since April, and how much more we are going to learn this year. Taking the time to evaluate helped me in a few ways. It helped silence the doubt – because the goal is for my children to be educated in a loving way, at home. They are learning, I am succeeding. It helped me gain a clearer picture of where we are, and where we are headed. It also helped me separate their skills, so I can see who knows what, who needs help with what, and it has given me a fresh perspective for approaching our school days.
So, voice of doubt, please go away. I am a daughter of the King, and you, voice of the enemy, are not welcome. My God paid for me, redeemed me, and is helping me on this journey. My kids are educationally up to par, they are learning about the bible and what God has done for them, and they are learning to praise Him every day.
Does the voice of doubt attack you? What do you do about it?