It’s been a while since I’ve written a blog post, and somehow I find myself sitting here tonight with so much to say I don’t know where to begin. This year is drawing to an end, and so many things have changed, and so many things are the same.
I want so much to use this space to open up and pour out all that’s been on my heart lately, yet I as I said, I have no idea where to begin exactly.
The boys and I are trucking along, one day at a time, over half way finished with our first official year of homeschooling. Thing 1 is doing an amazing job in Kindergarten and Thing 2 is doing equally well in pre-k. Their teacher (yes, me) is having a hard time keeping things in order and keeping school the priority it is supposed to be.. I hate admitting that. Homeschooling has always been my dream for how to educate my kiddos, and as we see 2011 end, and 2012 approach, I think I may have to let that dream go.
Add it to the list.
And this is exactly why I need to be here, writing tonight. Because as I add another dream to the list of ones that didn’t make it, I can finally hear the little whisper asking me to make room for new dreams. But if you know me even a little, you know the way I cling to and fight for the dreams I have. I feel like I’m sitting in a mess of broken dreams and I’m lacking direction for my life. But maybe I just am not looking hard enough for the new dreams.
Maybe it’s time for a new list…a list of things that I can still accomplish, a list of things to help keep me moving forward as a mom and as a woman.
Maybe the broken pieces of the dreams that don’t get to come true will become the fuel and lessons to help make other, newer, better dreams come true.