The Right Who

This post is inspired by the recent message series at Life.ChurchDivine Direction.

Pastor Craig really packed a lot of truth and guidance into this 4 part series. We’ve been going to Life.Church for 4.5 years and this is my favorite series so far. No doubt, I’ve been deeply moved by many of his messages, but this one really motivated me to examine my heart and my direction.

I’ve been wrestling with a big decision, that would add to my workload and eventually change my career. I thought after the first three messages that I was prepared to make the decision – although I was still wrestling a little bit. Then, as we made our way into service, I declared my (almost decided) decision to Mr. W. He told me that as long as I was deciding to put the idea to rest, that was fine. But if my decision was based on external factors – specifically our business and kids – then I needed to pursue the idea.

Those words didn’t help – kids and business were the top two things that swayed me away from the idea. But Pastor Craig’s messages pointed out that I needed to focus on doing the things I’m already doing, and to do them well. I don’t always do things well, I tend to go for quantity over quality, and I don’t think that honors God.

I’m diving back in to my talk notes from week 1 – Power to Become. Pastor Craig used this message to drive home the point that God cares more about who we are than about what we do. I’ve said before in my posts that God cares more about our character than our comfort. Whether we flip burgers, clean bathrooms, or are some high level executive, God is deeply concerned with our heart and our motives.

God wants to develop our character before He is concerned with our calling. Even the disciples went through a long process of becoming who before Jesus sent them to do. We can have the right career and the wrong heart, and therefore do the wrong things in that career. We can have what seems like the wrong career, but the right heart about it, and the way we are honoring God and the example we are setting makes it the right place for us to be – even if only for a season.

If we aren’t doing the seemingly small and insignificant jobs well, then we don’t deserve bigger jobs. We have to be faithful with where we are before God is going to move us up and on.

Translating all of this to my own life, and where I am in my life, I’ve been asking myself if I am doing my jobs well? I tend to take on a lot of jobs, so many that I can only do them partially because then I have to run to the next job – that, to me, doesn’t seem like a job well done. I guess somewhere in my mind, me doing part of the job is better than the thought that none of it will get done. This is flawed thinking, as I’m not the only one doing jobs.

So, in the several weeks since this first message, I’ve been trying to be more diligent with my jobs. I’ve been trying to get up earlier, and I’ve been trying to slow down enough to see jobs through to completion. I’ve also been trying to get more organized and to pick up after myself regularly. (I tend to make messes with the intention of going back to fix them later, but I rarely make it back to do the cleaning up part.)

I am going to work on becoming the right who, so God can direct my steps toward the right do.

Can you see how God is working on who you are in your current season?

What Can I Do With That?

As I was laying in bed, ready to fall asleep, I began wondering what I am supposed to do with this life. Like, career wise. Everybody is supposed to have one, right? And granted, I’m in the middle of homeschooling 3 boys, with a new baby, and a home to care for, but whether now or in 18-ish years, I’m going to work again. Right?

Can I just tell you, the list of ideas that run through my head are insane. No, maybe not insane, but there are way too many things that I think would be really cool to do. It’s not like I have a few things that are similar. No, one minute I’m thinking medical professional, next minute I want to work at one of the horse ranches in Oklahoma, next minute I’m thinking accounting/bookkeeping, then suddenly I think I’d like to be in massage therapy or cutting hair.

These ideas bounce around and around, and all them require that I further my education. I play the idea in my head, from what it would be like to go back to school, to starting my career, working it for a while, the salary range of it, and what we could afford. The idea can grow rapidly and soon, someone who is obviously not me, parades around in my head with nearly an entire life that I’ve imagined for them.

I was wondering last night what I should do with that, what I could do with that…and it hit me, in the most awesome way.

I know exactly what I can do with that.

I can write. I am a writer. And all of those jobs I want to have, all of those lives I can construct in my head, are meant to be put down on paper to build characters and stories for those characters.

Have you ever had an epiphany moment like this? How did it change your life or your day to day actions?