2 years old!

I just got the notification that my blog is 2 years old. Well, technically it’s a shred older, because it originated on Blogger. But on WordPress, it’s 2 years old.

This comes with two emotional responses today:

1. Wow! 2 years! I’ve been blogging for two years. I love my little writing space. I’ve never really taken a particular direction with my blog, but I still love it. I love having the chance to share from the heart with people from all over the place.

2. 2 years? Why isn’t my book done yet? Why am I not working on book 2, or book 3?! How did I let 2 years happen so quickly without accomplishing much?

I’m really struggling right now, folks. There are a lot of things happening on this side of the screen, and some changes that are happening. I’m not a huge fan of change, and I’m feeling spread thin. I don’t like hard decisions, either. I could use an extra prayer or two, if you don’t mind.

And please pray for those affected by the tornadoes yesterday, and for protection from the storms coming today – we’ve seen a lot of destruction here in Oklahoma.

How can I pray for you today?

Selfishness

I’d like to think I’m generally grateful for the many blessings in my life, and that my eyes and heart are open to seeing more of the good than the bad. Yet, the last few days the exact opposite has been true. I’ve been blinded by a severe case of the “I want’s” and the “Gimmees”.

At first, I thought I would write about what it is I’m wanting, and why it’s SOOOO important. But, the truth is, it’s not that important. Somehow, though, the enemy has completely distracted me from what is good in my life and I’ve allowed myself to get seriously upset about some things I don’t have. Yes, things. Like, material possessions.

And admitting that is hard. Because I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be angry about a possession I don’t have right now. But I am. I am frustrated to the point of tears and I’m tempted to stomp my feet because “I deserve…” but that’s not the truth.

The truth is that I am extremely blessed. I am surrounded by children that I love and that love me. My husband works hard to take care of us. He loves me well and accepts me for who I am. He supports me and my crazy hair-brained ideas. The truth about what I deserve is that I deserve death, because I am a sinner. But, by the unmeasurable grace of God, I am saved. Christ bought me for a price.

This doesn’t make the selfishness go away immediately, but it puts it in perspective so I can dry my eyes and clean my house. And, I think the main reason I wanted to write this is because sometimes I feel like my writing is too idealistic. And honestly, I’m a real wife, mom, woman, who struggles with real life issues, too.

What are you struggling with? How will you overcome your struggle?

Struggling with Mild Depression

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Occasionally I struggle with depression – albeit a fairly mild form, it can nonetheless be debilitating. It usually sneaks up on me, I don’t realize it’s trying to take hold again, and when I do finally recognize it for what it is, I am often left wondering why I am struggling with it again. Sometimes I even question my faith in God and my hope in Christ – Christians shouldn’t battle with depression, right?

Wrong.

Many people battle with depression, but I believe we all have an opportunity for victory. I believe we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us (Philippians 4:13) and “7For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Tim. 1:7 – KJV). I believe God wants us to claim victory, and I believe there are a few things we can do.

First and foremost: Familiarize yourself with the TRUTH from scripture. Read it, memorize it, meditate on it, and soak yourself in it.

Second: Know the to do list, write down the tasks you need to accomplish, and motivation or not, start working on them. If you find yourself getting distracted, go back to your list and remember what you are trying to finish. A completed project can provide a great sense of accomplishment, even if it’s just the dishes. (As far as a “do something with my hands” kind of thing, this is the best one for me. It’s also the hardest. When I’m struggling I just want to sleep – all day, all night, all day, all night. I don’t want to get up for anything. Even going to the bathroom is annoying to me. Yet, as I look as the tasks I know I need to do, and I do them, I find victory in staying out of bed and denying depression the stronghold it is trying to take over me.)

Third: Help others. Seriously, get out of your house, get out of yourself, go help someone else. Serve food to the hungry, call and talk to someone who may be lonely, go visit the nursing home, help re-stock shelves at the food pantry, help your church with something. This is huge too – because depression is focusing solely on me, and if I take the focus off me, I often find victory.

Last, but not least: SUNSHINE. Get outside, get some sunshine – but don’t just sit. Walk around your yard, walk around your house, stretch. Combine sunshine and light exercise. This really does help.

These may not be a cure-all, and I am not trying to say depression isn’t real. I am confident that depression is beatable, we can claim victory of this robber – depression is a thief, come to steal, kill and destroy – a weapon of the enemy. But God gives us victory through Christ!

Do you struggle with depression? How do you claim your victory?