So, I’m realizing that a lot of technology is passing me by. Windows is advancing, and I’m still on Vista, and there are new devices, and programs, and operating systems out there that I can’t maneuver so well. The fact is, I’m getting older, and my information is becoming “outdated” and soon, my kids will have to show me how to run this, or that. Just like I did for my parents.
But I am realizing that they weren’t “out of touch” or “old,” in fact, they weren’t even lacking any intelligence.
They were smarter than me!
I have learned the value of a dollar, and instead of getting a new computer every 6 months, or even every year, I have been using mine for four years. And I’m reformatting it tonight, because something corrupted, but I am not quite ready to chunk it. I mean, why waste it if it’s still useable?
I’ve learned this about cars. Sure, new ones smell nice, but the hubs and I got a heck of a deal on our current vehicle. And we have NO payment. SCORE!
It is not always about having the newest, coolest stuff. Sometimes, sleeping well at night, and working a few less hours because the bills aren’t so many, are what is most important!
I’d like to think I’m generally grateful for the many blessings in my life, and that my eyes and heart are open to seeing more of the good than the bad. Yet, the last few days the exact opposite has been true. I’ve been blinded by a severe case of the “I want’s” and the “Gimmees”.
At first, I thought I would write about what it is I’m wanting, and why it’s SOOOO important. But, the truth is, it’s not that important. Somehow, though, the enemy has completely distracted me from what is good in my life and I’ve allowed myself to get seriously upset about some things I don’t have. Yes, things. Like, material possessions.
And admitting that is hard. Because I don’t want to be selfish. I don’t want to be angry about a possession I don’t have right now. But I am. I am frustrated to the point of tears and I’m tempted to stomp my feet because “I deserve…” but that’s not the truth.
The truth is that I am extremely blessed. I am surrounded by children that I love and that love me. My husband works hard to take care of us. He loves me well and accepts me for who I am. He supports me and my crazy hair-brained ideas. The truth about what I deserve is that I deserve death, because I am a sinner. But, by the unmeasurable grace of God, I am saved. Christ bought me for a price.
This doesn’t make the selfishness go away immediately, but it puts it in perspective so I can dry my eyes and clean my house. And, I think the main reason I wanted to write this is because sometimes I feel like my writing is too idealistic. And honestly, I’m a real wife, mom, woman, who struggles with real life issues, too.
What are you struggling with? How will you overcome your struggle?