I want to be a fly on the wall, and I want about 10 different homeschool families to observe. I wish I had some other reason to offer other than my own insecurity, but the truth is, I feel like I’m doing it wrong most of the time. Now, this is a little bit funny because the boys are all learning a lot. The man-child is adjusting to being homeschooled, and I think he may even like it now.
The younger two are progressing daily with their reading, writing and math. They are blossoming and learning, and I am thankful. But I still feel like I’m doing it wrong. I keep trying to find and calculate the magic formula for success, as if success is measurable by some standard set by someone else. Then, I am reminded about how those kinds of measurements are affecting other educational institutions, and that I’m trying to avoid those things.
I have decided to build our curriculum for this next year, piecing together things I want to teach with things they want to learn, with skills they need to have. By combining the internet, the library, the things I purchase, and the resources all around us, I hope to teach them many things this coming year. This semester has been about growing together, getting used to the system, and just maintaining forward progress. (Which we have done!)
Truth be told; however, I really wanted an all-in-one curriculum. I still wanted to be told what to teach, as if I might miss something crucial or forget that math (or English, or composition, or science, or …) is important. I have this huge need to make sure we aren’t missing anything… and when I run across something I haven’t been teaching (like how to use a day planner) I start fretting over how ill-equipped I’m making these boys.
But the reminders come when Hubby says something in reference to what he’s seen in the boys. Or when we are out in public and the boys use their manners and speak intelligently and people are shocked to learn we homeschool. I was homeschooled, and it’s something I whole heartedly believe in, and am blessed to be doing. You would think that by now, I would have developed some measure of confidence in our ability to grow and learn together.
Do you have a homeschool confession this week?